hello monday! {letting it be messy}

***Hello Monday is where I greet the new week with an open heart and a fresh perspective. It’s a new beginning–and there’s so much to be thankful for! Join me by leaving your own hellos in the comments section or linking up a hello monday post there!***

We’re jumping into a new, very imperfect week. Mind if I process through it with you bit? Back in January, David sprained his right foot and didn’t walk for three weeks. The evening he injured it, we took him to the ER for X-rays and it looked like a basic sprain. Once his foot began to heal, slowly and cautiously began to put more pressure on it and was up and about. His gait was strange, but we figured, as his foot healed, he would stop limping and get his stride back. But in the weeks that followed, he continues to limp, sometimes rotating his hips awkwardly and at times refusing to walk at all. He’s still very cautious about putting weight on his right foot. Since he has no words, we are gathering from his physical cues that he’s having pain and discomfort.

We’ve had an appointment with a pediatric hip/leg specialist at UCLA scheduled for April 1st, but we’ve grown more concerned about David’s foot and we were able to move the appointment up to tomorrow {March 11}. I’ll drive him down and we’re praying we’ll get some answers.

It’s a four hour drive and Steve and I prefer to do these appointment together as we never know what news we’ll get. But if we go together, that means pulling Matthias out of school which is not ideal. Last week, after I changed David’s appointment date, I tried to sort through all the facts to figure out the ‘right answer’. Do we all go down as a family? Do I go by myself with David and leave steve and Matthias at home? If it’s just me and David, what if I need Steve’s help during X-rays or what if they decide David needs surgery? But if we all go, will Matthias miss too much school? Will he be disappointed to miss his swim lesson? What’s the right answer? All of this is further complicated by the fact that we have more similar appointments and a possible surgery coming up in the next few months.

And the conclusion I came to? There is no “right answer”. Every solution is imperfect and has it’s own messiness. Driving to a see specialists four hours away is inconvenient and complicated. But it’s also necessary and important. So I’m jumping into the week with all it’s messiness and imperfection. I’m trying to let go of guilt and give myself grace. Your situation is likely different, but filled with it’s own difficult decisions and messiness. Can we greet this week with all it’s messiness together? How about some hellos?

Hello to the four of us. My favorite times are when we’re all together.

Hello boys who have completely stolen my heart. I didn’t know I could love so deeply.

Hello kisses. That little smile on David’s face kills me!

Hello to living in thriving in the messy, imperfection of everyday.

Hello grace. I’m trying to give myself more of it.

Hello sweetness. I believe there is beauty to be found.

Hello planning meals and grocery shopping. The better I plan, the healthier we eat!

Hello catching up on laundry. Just kidding, that’s impossible! 😉

Hello drive in the car and time to think.

Hello sunshine. We’ve had some beautiful weather lately.

Hello longer days. Isn’t it nice to have it lighter in the evening?

Hello praying for answers for David’s foot/hip/leg issues and GI pain.

Hello new wildflowers necklace that’s close to my heart.

Hello Monday! It’s a brand new week full of messiness and beauty. What are you saying hello to this week? Leave some hellos in the comments or link up your own hello monday post there!