When David was born eleven years ago, I had no idea what the future held. I thought I knew. I thought I had it all planned out. But everything I planned was broken to pieces as our son emerged into the world with only two fingers on his left hand, a serious heart defect and a genetic disorder that would change the way his life would look.
At first I couldn’t stop crying. Nothing made sense. Then I was determined and overly optimistic. I would be the best mom ever. No matter what it took, I would make everything okay. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t be good enough. If I wasn’t physically exhausted then I was emotionally exhausted. It wasn’t just David who was broken, it was me too. I couldn’t be good enough to make up for his lack. We were both imperfect; flawed and needy. And as I started to accept the brokenness, I began to see bits of beauty emerge. Small things, like a sunflower in bloom, caught my eye. And I could feel my heart begin to heal. When David started to smile, it was like the sun shined brighter. As I let go of trying to make everything perfect, I started to see beauty in the brokenness.
I’m sharing my heart and my faith collection over at{in}courage today–hop over to read the rest.
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Absolutely, awe inspiring. I am really glad I found your blog on Monday Mingling. 😉
I love the way God is at work in your life Lisa.
Thank you Sarah! xo
Hi Lisa,
I’ve been reading your blog for about three years now and I still remember a post you wrote early on about how when David was born you looked out the window and there was a large tree standing outside. Something to the effect of how could everything be beautiful and ‘normal’ outside when your world felt like it was falling apart. It touched me at the time b/c my son had just been diagnosed w/ a life threatening illness and it captured my heart at that moment. The Lord led me to Psalm 1:1-3just a short time after. Anyway, I was wondering if you have ever thought of a tree design for your faith collection? (Just a thought) More than anything I wanted you to know how your blog has blessed me over the past few years:)
Blessings
Thank you Jill. I love your idea of a tree-themed necklace for the faith collection. I’ll give that some thought. Hugs to you. xx